in 2009, i was introduced to reiki and other forms of “spiritual healings and modalities. as a Sagittarius, i love learning and looking at things from different perspectives.

i am truly a being of truth and that’s what i received in many ways. 

there hasn’t been one thing - a book, teacher or modality that helped me realize who i am and everything that encompasses who i am. it was many things, people and modalities.

i truly set the intention to go beyond the constructs, programs and illusions we’ve been given.

i have always gone against the grain. my father encouraged it. 

right before my mother’s transition, i was on this high for life. i didn’t care about what others thought of me, how they saw me or how they felt about me. i was truly living from the inside out.

then, my mother transitioned in January 2019, and i came crashing down from my high. i didn’t know who i was,

now, my mother and father allowed me to be who i was, so it wasn’t like i lived my life according to their “wishes”. and, despite the kind of relationship one has with their mother, once she is gone from the physical, a part of you also “dies”. the question was: who was i now?

i remember being on the plane to Cali and i heard my mother’s voice say, “you’ve got to live your live for you now.” life began to look differently. things that once got me riled up, didn’t affect me anymore. i began to see beauty everywhere. i became a little softer.

fast forward to November 2023, my dad transitions suddenly. that pain broke me and my heart wide open. love wasn’t just something to “feel”, it really became something to be and experience, independent of anyone else.

i no longer tripped off of things and people. my gratitude increased. my inner vision expanded. my consciousness evolved and i saw myself differently. 

it was then, that i saw my own beauty, i began to understand why i was different. why i was treated differently, why i chose the people that had come and gone (more on that later).

recently, i reconnected to my inner child and inner teenager (also, more on that later). i started to understand what “self-love” means - at least for me. i became excited about life again. but this time it was because of me, not because of my niece or nephew (the two people who never judged me and accepted me fully). i was truly in the frequency and energy of love; for myself.

my countenance changed (something i had prayed for - for years). i had a glow that was solely mine, not because i thought i “loved” some man.

each day, i speak to both of “my girls” and give them what they needed back then. i am reparenting myself. i am an active participant in my own life and i am having a time, do you understand me? 

ask and it shall be given is such a true statement. i guess those visions of having daughters years ago, was me coming home to myself and parenting those parts of me that got lost. 

life, it truly is beautiful when you see it that way. and, i do and i am… 

so, who is Keli? words aren’t enough to describe, and it’s not really something i can describe.

i’m just, Keli - a little fire girl from St. Louis.